Cherish the Treasure

I’ve been dreaming to be wedded and married to a man that I will love and live with for the rest of my life. I always wanted to experience the wedding bliss and jitters and the excitement going through of each details. Choosing the wedding date, ceremony, participants, sponsors, gown, food, cake, reception and the rest of tiny details that must be perfect for the special day.

One of the important is the wedding song that gives life of the ceremony and will flood with tears from the people who will witness the union of two people. When I was in my teen years, there was this song that I’ve been trying to memorize the lyrics and melody of this beautiful song. And thought to myself: I’m going to have this song on my wedding day. And every time I listen to this song, it never fails to make me cry. 

The song is so intense, not only the purpose of the song but the meaning itself. How couple has let God rule their lives and follow His will and live according to His purpose and plan. It is amazing how a couple met, married and lived happily not because that’s how they want it but how God want them to be. So rare to see and hear people married and lived wondrously according to God’s plan and not according to their own will.

Here’s the video with lyrics of Cherish the Treasure by Jon Mohr.

Happy Birthday!

OMG! It’s my birthday! Well, not today, on the 21th and I still don’t have any plans for it. I don’t even know what to expect because definitely I'm no longer in the calendar but still in the lotto card. I can’t remember if I had any birthday celebration aside from when I was 1 year old because I have pictures of it, I just can’t find them, they must be somewhere…

But anyway, what’s with the birthday? Is it really important aside from counting your age? Will it matter if you don’t celebrate it?

As an adult, it is no longer important to me, no longer a big deal if no one remembers my birthday. I won’t cry if I don’t receive any gifts from friends and family. Birthday celebration is just a date that comes and passes each year. But as a mother, I try to make as possible as I can to create something for my little girl. 
I want her to remember every single detail she had on her birthdays. I want her to think and feel that her birthday is important to me as well as to her. Not only for the cake, juice, spaghetti, and fried chicken which she likes the most but the essence of her being human. I want her to behave appropriately as she age. To be strong and determined than what I become.

Hong Kong-Macau Trip

Hong Kong City Lights

It’s been 11 months since I had my 3-day tour in Hong Kong and Macau last September 8-11, 2012. It was a wonderful experience and definitely I enjoyed my trip. It was my first out-of-the-country trip and I never imagined that I will enjoy it to the max! The tour doesn’t seem to be 3-day trip as I arrived at Hong Kong airport almost past 10pm and had a little problem finding my luggage in the huge Hong Kong airport. 

Disney Castle

I was a bit anxious and excited when I passed off the immigration and was looking for a store where to find a bottle of water. There’s a 7-11 store but to my utterly dismay, the 500ml bottle of water is $40HKD! What does include in that water, diamond crystals?! But since you will feel like you’re going to die right at that moment if you don’t drink water, you will force yourself to shell-out $40HKD just for a small bottle of water.

Venetian Resort & Casino

Then, the following day, a whole day tour to Hong Kong Disneyland which I totally enjoyed and wished I brought my daughter with me. It’s like the pictures from my Disney books came to life! Then there’s the parade of Disney characters including Tinkerbell and the princesses. And then at 8PM, the fireworks accompanied by the soundtracks of Disney princesses movies started. 

And finally, a whole day trip to Macau, my favorite city. You will never smell a single odor even at the port. No flies, mosquitoes, bugs, even the public toilets are so clean. I felt ashamed when I thought about the public toilets in the Philippines. I also visited the Venetian Resort and Casino which will tempt you to shop till you spent your last dollar in your wallet, but then, if you have your credit cards, feel free to shop because its tax free.

Ruins of St. Paul, Macau

 The whole 3-day trip was a wonderful experience that I will never forget. Definitely  will go back to Disneyland and Macau for another unforgettable tour and will surely take my daughter with me. I want to her experience the same excitement and adventure I had.

Life-Changing Battle

Most people say life is like a gamble. But for me, it is a battle, a constant one. I never imagined, nor thought my life would be like a battlefield. I always thought life would be a wonderful thing you’d wanted to have. Time changes and so is my life. I never thought I would be having a colorful and adventurous life, so to speak. Met lots of people there, got new friends out there and all that. But life doesn’t just end there. It was totally a different world when I decided to have my own family, and that’s when my battle in life started.

When I met my ex-fiancé, I thought to myself: ‘this is a life-changing situation’ which I could say it really did changed my life, but not in a way I expected it. After the preparation of semi-expensive garden wedding including the reception, catering service and cake designer, the wedding never materialized. And when I found out I was 3 weeks pregnant, to my utter dismay, my ex-fiancé didn’t want to have a child and wanted me to terminate my pregnancy which he will provide for the expenses or he will totally stop any communication and support if I decided to continue with my pregnancy.

It was one of the most difficult decisions during that time because I don’t want to be a single/unwed mother, just thinking of the huge embarrassment it will cause my family. But after 4 months dealing with depression and constant encouragement from friends, my OB-Gyne and support from my parents who never said a single disgust regarding my situation, I decided and stood by it to continue with my pregnancy. 

I have my little beautiful girl but I lost my mother after suffering from stroke which took her 7 months being bed-ridden before she gave up her own battle for her life. Though I didn’t shed a tear when she died but deep inside I know I lost the only person who was with me the whole time while I’m getting through the entire pregnancy and who never sleep just to take care of her only grand-daughter and I know she loved so much.

Though my daily finances is a tremendous battle for me, considering I’m a single mother and head of the family, it never stopped me to live and continuously fight not only for myself, for my family but also for my faith in God who never left me in the middle of my battle in life.